I have to think it's something to do with sinus and allergies, but still...we had an emergency doctor visit yesterday afternoon for the headache, I spent the entire day yesterday and the night before that and the day before that alternating between being in pain and being in a drugged stupor, and I'm going back in a few hours to see if they can do anything about the painful pressure in my ears (steroids, here we come, I'm guessing).
AND Bella is up. I have no explanation for this; it's quite odd. She was up at an early hour yesterday, so she really should have gone right to sleep...we didn't even put her to bed until 9:30, and she's gotten into a nice pattern of going cooperatively to bed lately. But when I went to see what all the racket on the monitor was at 1:30 a.m., she hurriedly hustled to lie down in her little precious bed and cover up. I knelt to talk to her, see if anything was wrong, and she was just fine. She asked, "Did you hear me playing with my toys?" I just said, "Well, I heard a lot of noise when you should be sleeping." I reached to smooth her blanket, and my mother will be thrilled to hear that I found the entire furnishings from Dora's Talking House, as well as several members of Dora's family, under the covers with her.
As I started to clear away the toys, she protested, and began wailing, "But I just wanted to play with my TOYYYYYYS!" I told her no, bid her goodnight, and shut the door. The wailing got louder, and set off sympathetic wailing from the puppies. And then she got up and started baning on the door, which got all the grown-up dogs going. At this point, I can't risk Alex's sleep, especially since he spent the previous day tending to me and my stupid migraine and keeping Bella occupied.
And that, my friends, is why I am writing this at 2:30 in the morning, while rocking Bella on the glider and watching muted "Scooby Doo." Which is even creepier that "Scooby Doo" with sound. And that's saying something. I keep waiting for Bella's head to get heavy, for her to fall asleep...no luck yet. And this, again, is weird, because the rocking usually does it for her, and has been a reliable last resort. I just hope I don't have to stay awake until time for the doctor's appointment...or that Bella does. Because that child, on too-little sleep? NOT FUN. Especially in public. When I tried appealing to her common sense and telling her we had to get up early to go see Dr. J. (not Julius Erving), she had this whole argument prepared, the premise of which was that we could party tonight, sleep in tomorrow, and then go see the doctor at night. A confirmed night-owl already. Great. If this keeps up, I'm going to start reading her some vampire stories.
And, I just now remembered, I never posted the results of my Johari window. I think you can keep adding to it, if you like, but here it is to date (I find the words that no one chose the most telling part of the thing, if you wanna know the truth):
(known to self and others)
giving, idealistic, intelligent, loving, sentimental, sympathetic
(known only to others)
accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, caring, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, friendly, happy, helpful, ingenious, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, mature, modest, nervous, observant, proud, reflective, religious, searching, self-assertive, sensible, silly, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, wise, witty
(known only to self)
(known to nobody)
able, calm, dependable, dignified, energetic, extroverted, independent, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, relaxed, responsive, self-conscious, shy, tense
able (0%) accepting (9%) adaptable (6%) bold (9%) brave (12%) calm (0%) caring (46%) cheerful (3%) clever (25%) complex (12%) confident (3%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (28%) giving (15%) happy (3%) helpful (3%) idealistic (6%) independent (0%) ingenious (12%) intelligent (40%) introverted (3%) kind (25%) knowledgeable (21%) logical (3%) loving (50%) mature (3%) modest (3%) nervous (3%) observant (18%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (9%) quiet (0%) reflective (6%) relaxed (0%) religious (28%) responsive (0%) searching (9%) self-assertive (9%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (6%) sentimental (21%) shy (0%) silly (6%) spontaneous (3%) sympathetic (12%) tense (0%) trustworthy (25%) warm (25%) wise (6%) witty (50%)
In closing, good night, and wish me luck.
**Update: Without Alex here to rouse me, slept right through today's stinkin' appointment. And Bella didn't deign to awaken at any normal hour, either, having finally fallen unconscious on the loveseat in front of the fireplace sometime between 3-4:00 AM. So now I need to reschedule that, because my ears still feel like I'm either ascending or descending on a commercial airliner.